I need you to love me

This is my personal interpretation to the song "I need you to love me" by BarlowGirl

Loved

            Every human has a desire to be loved, a need to be wanted, and a yearning to be accepted by someone. In numerous cases people receive love, but they did not do anything to earn that love. Everyone makes mistakes, but they still receive love. Perhaps the most beautiful example of true love is the chance to be accepted even when one has messed up. Love can make someone forget about their past mistakes and make them feel like a new person. God’s love for everyone is something that no one can grasp, yet deep down we all want His love. “I Need You to Love Me” demonstrates the human desire to be loved and cherished even though one may feel undeserving.

            The singer of this song has made a mistake. She feels ashamed and she wants to run away, but God has not left her side. She questions God as to why He is not leaving her and why He still wants the broken mess that she has become. In her life she tries to push Him away. People often have a difficult time understanding how God can love them. Everyone has sinned and yet Father God keeps pulling them into His loving arms. Finding the pure love of God makes an individual forget their past mistakes and helps them find who they were truly created to be. The singer realizes that she has forgotten what she has been and she understands who she was created to be. She just needs God to love her.

            Once someone receives love there is the struggle of trying to understand that love. Humans often do not view God as a loving man. This makes understanding the love that He showers on them difficult. The singer understands that God already has everything that He could ever want. Somehow He still wants to cherish her. The thought is unfathomable. Perhaps being truly loved is something that no one will ever fully understand or deserve. Humans feel entitled to numerous objects and emotions, including love, yet they feel undeserving. God’s love is something that cannot be earned. His love is given generously, without finding fault or flaws. The singer tries to understand how she can deserve God’s love. However she cannot. She just needs Him to love her.

            Love is a complicated matter. Everyone has in their heart the desire to be loved. Often times the idea of love seems mind-blowing, and that makes the idea scary. God understand the human desire to be loved and He graciously offers love. However, a large number of people try to push Him away, or only ask for love when something is going wrong in their life. The singer understands that she needs God’s love and she says she just needs Him to love her. She stops acting as if she does not need to be loved and opens herself up to the love that has always been available. Even though people may feel undeserving, they still just need to be loved. Love has the power to change the way people feel about themselves. Love changes their lives. The singer realizes that God’s love has made her forget her past life and she can be the person God created her to be. No matter who tries to push God away, or why they try to push Him away they still receive his love which is all that matters. In the end, everyone just needs to be loved.

<3 Char 

Poetry.

I have decided to give poetry and creative writing a chance. This is my first attempt at poetry. 


The last four years.

Can you walk me in? I asked,

You held my hand and walked me in.

On my very first day

            You don’t have a choice you have to go.

I was only a baby

            She’s a great student, they said.

I was the best they had

            You’re going to go so far in life.

But where was I to go

            She’s so quiet.

If only they knew

            You’re the sweetest person I’ve ever met.

I’ve heard it all before

            What do you mean you want to stay?

I’m having the time of my life

            You’re going to college.

I don’t know what I want to be

            Graduation Time!

Wait, I’m only a baby

Char<3

Beautiful

One day in the fall of 2008 I met a man in a Wendy's restaurant and it was a life changing experience. Our family could not decide where to eat so we pulled in to Wendy's and it seemed okay for everyone. We ordered our food and Claire and I sat down. While my parents we're waiting for it to be picked up, a man with a Southern accent walked up to them. He was alone. My parents could just tell that this man loved Jesus, and they came back and asked if it would be okay if we asked him to join us for dinner. Of course it was. And this was a Jesus thing. 

He sat down and half way through the dinner he looked at me and said "Young lady, the Lord has a message that He wants you to know: Don't settle for any man because He has the perfect man for you and also... you will be in ministry and your hands will heal and you will touch thousands of people."

I knew that I had been called into the ministry. It had happened at camp when I was 11 or 12. I wouldn’t realize until August 2011 that this was conformation that I needed to be in ministry.

"Am I Beautiful?" she asked.

"Of course you are," he said. 

"What makes me beautiful?"

He did not say anything for a while. 

For years society has put a standard and a price on beauty. Girls and women in this day and age will do anything to achieve the "perfect body." But newsflash: the so called "perfect body" doesn't exist. Beauty is so much more than the outside. It really comes from what is inside. Sure you can buy the latest make up from Covergirl or where the latest styles from Vouge. But all that will one day fade. It is truly what is inside that counts. Is it beautiful when a 15 year old girl is starving herself or throwing up to look like the airbrush model in a fashion magazine? Is it beautiful when a 30 year old woman is having needles and knifes and tubes hooked up to her body to suck out some extra fat or fix the unique quirk on her noes? Is it really beautiful when a girl will let a guy take advantage of her so she can feel hot or sexy?

No! Its actually pretty disgusting. And yet society sees all these things as acceptable. 

The truth is, we have all wished that we could have a different size body. Or that we could be doing the catwalk next to Tyra Banks or have the "perfect" body profile like Paris Hilton or Jessica Simpson. But how many of us have ever wanted the inner (and outer) beauty that shines through in Mandisa or Queen Latifa?

So here is the open and honest truth. Everyone is made differently and we are all unique. We all have different body sizes, different height and different weights. Regardless of what society has drilled in to our minds. As long as you are happy and healthy in your skin...it doesn't matter what size you are. This was something that I have struggled with my whole life. Until I realized that I can’t change who I am! God is really working on my heart to see that this is who he has created me to be!

Way deep down every person knows that being a different size than everyone else is beautiful. So why then are we still obsessing over how much we weigh (or how much we don't weigh)? Why do we want to look like a Barbie Doll? And why are so many people afraid to come out and say: I AM BEAUTIFUL?! We are fearful. Fearful about what people will say. Maybe it our past hurts. Maybe you were called the fat girl, or you were made fun of for the size of your ears or even your height. Why are we so afraid to give it up? Because it has defined us! But it doesn't have to any longer! I am here to tell you that no matter what that scale says, or what you are seeing in the mirror, you are absolutely beautiful!! And that beauty truly comes from the inside! Don't let how you look determine how you live your life because I can guarantee that you will be absolutely miserable!! So let that amazing personality shine, breakout of your shell. Quit trying to hide it. Accept yourself for the way you are. Let go of the past hurts and insults and live  YOUR life. Let your beautiful inside reflect your beautiful outside. 

Because guess what:

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL! 

~Charlotte Walterhouse

"You are beautiful because your inside shines out." He said.

And she was happy.

<3 Lola

The Beginning

This will be my first blog post, but let me tell you its gonna get pretty crazy! I'm pretty excited about this whole ordeal! Check back soon or don't whatever works for you!


<3 Lola