I am really frustrated at myself tonight. I can not sleep. I have noticed that the past few weeks my relationship with Christ has not been where it should be. I have slowly been isolating myself, thinking I can deal with my problems on my own. I by no means have this figured out and as I am sure you can guess, I am failing miserably at being my own "savior." I reread all my journal entries from Honduras and I want to find the girl that I was when I was there this summer. Something changed in me. I have never felt the Holy Spirit on me in such a powerful way as I did when I was overseas. Please capture my heart JESUS!
I was talking with my mom a few days ago about my future and my past... they kinda go hand in hand. I have been healed from many childhood fears and insecurities that I struggled with and I find those things creeping back into my life. I just want to scream: satan get behind me! you have no authority to be in my thoughts or my actions! Its so freeing to say that!
I know deep down that when I stop trying to control everything around me that God is going to step in and rock my world like crazy, but recently it has been difficult to hand Him the reins to my life. I am continuing to pray that God clearly directs my path and I know that He will.
So tonight I ask all of my friends and family to intercede on my behalf and ask God to reveal Himself to me and capture my heart again!
<3 Char
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