I was reading the story of Noah last night. I am not the best when it comes to spending time in God's word, and I have no idea why. But literally every time I open my Bible, I am immediately reminded of how much God loves us. This "realization" of His love always overwhelms me and I feel so empowered. Anyways, last night as I was reading, I came to the end of Genesis chapter 8 when I read this: I will never again curse the ground because of the human race, even though everything they think or imagine is bent toward evil from childhood. I will never again destroy all living things. I was overcome with the thought that we have been failing God for years. He created us, even though He knows that we are going to screw things up and in essence, let Him down. He says "Everything we think or imagine is bent toward evil from our childhood" and yet, He still created us, and He still loves us.
It breaks my heart. I know that there is nothing I could do to make God love me anymore or any less. I know that His grace and is a free gift and He gives forgiveness when we ask for it. But, I cannot help but feel heartbroken over the fact that we let God down so much. We have been doing it since the beginning of time. It is so sad. And as I was reflecting on this, and my feelings towards this verse, another one came to mind. This one is found in Jeremiah 31 and it says: God told them, “I’ve never quit loving you and never will. Expect love, love, and more love! And so now I’ll start over with you and build you up again. I don't know about you, but I get chills when I read that. God, in all of His perfectness and holiness, will never stop loving us flawed and broken sinners. He loves us so much. I wish that I could convey that to everyone. I wish that there was someway we could understand just a little bit of how much He loves us, but there is no way that we can. I am so thankful that even though my heart is bent towards evil from childhood, God will never quit loving me. I hope that as you read this, you are reminded too of how much He loves you.
Thursday, March 27, 2014
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Humuhumunukunukuapuaa and a Woka Woka
Well today I caught myself singing the song humuhumunukunukuapuaa from High School Musical 2 a lot. And I also listened to Woka Woka by Shaikra, so that is the title of my post tonight.
I haven't posted about what is going on in my life in a while, and I could use some therapy so here comes a blog post about what is going on in my life.
I haven't posted about what is going on in my life in a while, and I could use some therapy so here comes a blog post about what is going on in my life.
What Is Going On In My Life
By: Charlotte Walterhouse
I am continuing on in my work at Trinity Lutheran School and I absolutely love it! I find myself getting excited to do crafts with my kids, and I love reading books to them and I love bringing movies for them to watch that I used to watch when I was a little girl. This is how I know I am where I am supposed to be. I don't think that I ever grew out of being a five year old, I just got taller and slightly more fashionable (I sometimes do wish I could mismatch my outfit and wear pink cowgirl boots and tutus and not be judged.) I love being back in the school that I never wanted to leave. I love working with people who were so influential in my life and instrumental in helping me become the follower of Christ that I am today! I have found a wonderful friend in my co-worker Kristen. I also love laughing about high school and life in general with my other co-worker Taylor. I love how imaginative and sweet little kids can be and I will be honest, when they run up and hug my knees, or jump into my arms, or tell me they love me, sometimes it brings tears to my eyes. I am so happy being at Trinity.
I am also continuing my education through online classes at Ivy Tech. I have decided on Criminal Justice as a major. People who really know me, know that this major totally make sense for me. And those who don't might get a good laugh out of the thought of me ever being a police officer. Luckily for the universe, I don't want to be out on the streets catching bad guys and yelling at people, I want to work in the Juvenile Justice System. So I am going for my degree. God has given me such a peace about this. I know that He still has plans to use me as a missionary, but missionaries don't always have to live overseas in Africa or Asia. Sometimes they can be right next door to you.
And while I am on the topic of being a missionary, I have postponed my plans of going to YWAM (Youth With A Mission) for the time being. I still feel led to go, and I will when the time is right. I am continuing to have major problems with my right knee (the one I had 2 surgeries on this summer). Until we find out what will need to be done to fix it, I am postponing my plans of leaving the country. I am not going to lie and tell you that I am fine, because most days this is not the case. I have no strength to go on anymore and I know that each day it is the Lord who is carrying me through. Knee pain is a weird thing. It is time consuming. The tasks that should be easy to do become very difficult and being in constant pain is frustrating and exhausting. I spend a lot of time in my bed, or on the couch with ice packs on my knees. And just like this summer, being in pain can bring loneliness sometimes. It is hard to get out and do fun things, so you have to relay on people coming to you. I am very blessed to have a wonderful family who do everything they can to make sure that I am comfortable and cared for and I have awesome friends who let me vent whenever I am getting stressed out.
So that is where I am in life. I am just living it in the best way I can right now! I feel very blessed to be where I am. I know that God has big plans in the future, but until I get there I am content to wait and be patient. Life is a constant time of growing and I know that even in the never ending battle with my knees, God is still growing me! Also, being at home has given me the wonderful opportunity of watching Wheel or Fortune and Jeopardy every night while crocheting, so I definitely have the cool factor going for me ;)
Monday, March 10, 2014
You might be Charlotte if...(Part 2)
This is the second installment of my first post entitled You might be Charlotte if...
There are many things I do that are just silly, stupid of just plane weird. So here are a few more signs that you might be turning into Charlotte...
1. You eat waffles every week... Real homemade waffles, not the frozen ones by Eggo which are a really sad excuse for waffles. Seriously. I could write a whole blog dedicated to how delicious waffles are. The secret is to whip the egg whites a ton until they are super fluffy. That makes the waffles puff up. Also, do not put more than half a cup of batter in the waffle iron no matter how badly you want to. It will spill out and there will be waffle batter caked unto your waffle iron.
2. You average 3 episodes of Psych a week.... Even though you have watched all of them except for the current season and half of season 7. And you are constantly trying to decide who you lie better, Shawn or Gus... but on rare occasions, you really like Lassiter. Also, you love Buzz McNabb because he is the coolest police character ever. And even though you have seen some of the episodes multiple times, you still laugh at every joke because it is still so hilarious to you!
3. You have a crush on a Fish and Game Warden from California because you watch a show called Wild Justice and he is a superhero for saving all those deers and bears. His name is Mike Beals and if you could meet any celebrity, you would want to meet him because he is the coolest Fish and Game Warden ever.
4. You want to be a Fish and Game Warden even though you aren't really stable enough to hike the woods every day and if you ever saw a dead body in the woods you would probably pee your pants and pass out. But, deep down you have a desire to live in and be in nature every day.
5. You spend your weekends crocheting in your bed while watching shows about people in prison on Youtube. The scarfs you make are awesome and you really do enjoy watching shows about jail.
6. At least once a week you walk up to your mom and say, "I finally know what I want to do with my life!" And every time you say this sentence, some different life plan comes out. You also text your two best friends saying you know what you want to do with your life even though you know that they know that you are probably not serious and so they shouldn't take you too seriously at the moment.
7. One time you tried to climb the refrigerator while screaming, I am Spiderman. In your defense though, you had just watched Spiderman and you were really hyper and couldn't control yourself. Also after trying to climb the refrigerator, you stubbed your toe and cried because it hurt so badly.
8. You blast 80's music in your car when the weather is nice because it just puts you in such a wonderful mood! And you spend a lot of time trying to decide what your favorite 80's song is, but realize it is pointless because you love them all.
9. You hear weekly, "You are always getting hurt" or "You are always sick." And sometimes you just feel like telling people to shut up. Because it really isn't your fault. You don't intentionally go looking for injury or germs, they jut have a way of finding you! (Also this may be slightly passive aggressive.)
10. You walk around the house singing songs from Wicked or Frozen and that is basically it. I really don't feel like I need to explain this one, but I am pretty sure that both of my parents could sing Let It Go, For Good, Do You Want To Build A Snowman or Defying Gravity even though they have never heard the actual song but you sing it so frequently that they probably know all the words.
11. You have never dated anyone because you spend a lot of time at Walmart and the men at Walmart aren't really your type. Plus you are probably not their type because you don't wear Native American Wolf shirts with dream catchers on them, you are not squished into your clothing so tight that there is skin falling out, you don't have any full leg or arm tattoos of butterflies or Pooh Bear and you also don't have a hairstyle from the 80's such as a mullet. (I think that butterfly and Pooh Bear tattoos have the potential to be done tastefully).
12. You love driving your little car so much! Seriously, your Beetle makes you insanely happy and it is your dream car even if you will not admit it because it is kind of a lame dream car. It is your dream car because Barbie had a Bug and you wanted to be just like Barbie when you were a little girl. Also you played with Barbies until you were in 8th grade and sometimes you wish that it was still acceptable to play with Barbies because they are kinda fun sometimes.
13. You made a second list about yourself exposing all of your secrets because you hope that it will make people laugh and provide them with some enjoyment.
There are many things I do that are just silly, stupid of just plane weird. So here are a few more signs that you might be turning into Charlotte...
1. You eat waffles every week... Real homemade waffles, not the frozen ones by Eggo which are a really sad excuse for waffles. Seriously. I could write a whole blog dedicated to how delicious waffles are. The secret is to whip the egg whites a ton until they are super fluffy. That makes the waffles puff up. Also, do not put more than half a cup of batter in the waffle iron no matter how badly you want to. It will spill out and there will be waffle batter caked unto your waffle iron.
2. You average 3 episodes of Psych a week.... Even though you have watched all of them except for the current season and half of season 7. And you are constantly trying to decide who you lie better, Shawn or Gus... but on rare occasions, you really like Lassiter. Also, you love Buzz McNabb because he is the coolest police character ever. And even though you have seen some of the episodes multiple times, you still laugh at every joke because it is still so hilarious to you!
3. You have a crush on a Fish and Game Warden from California because you watch a show called Wild Justice and he is a superhero for saving all those deers and bears. His name is Mike Beals and if you could meet any celebrity, you would want to meet him because he is the coolest Fish and Game Warden ever.
4. You want to be a Fish and Game Warden even though you aren't really stable enough to hike the woods every day and if you ever saw a dead body in the woods you would probably pee your pants and pass out. But, deep down you have a desire to live in and be in nature every day.
5. You spend your weekends crocheting in your bed while watching shows about people in prison on Youtube. The scarfs you make are awesome and you really do enjoy watching shows about jail.
6. At least once a week you walk up to your mom and say, "I finally know what I want to do with my life!" And every time you say this sentence, some different life plan comes out. You also text your two best friends saying you know what you want to do with your life even though you know that they know that you are probably not serious and so they shouldn't take you too seriously at the moment.
7. One time you tried to climb the refrigerator while screaming, I am Spiderman. In your defense though, you had just watched Spiderman and you were really hyper and couldn't control yourself. Also after trying to climb the refrigerator, you stubbed your toe and cried because it hurt so badly.
8. You blast 80's music in your car when the weather is nice because it just puts you in such a wonderful mood! And you spend a lot of time trying to decide what your favorite 80's song is, but realize it is pointless because you love them all.
9. You hear weekly, "You are always getting hurt" or "You are always sick." And sometimes you just feel like telling people to shut up. Because it really isn't your fault. You don't intentionally go looking for injury or germs, they jut have a way of finding you! (Also this may be slightly passive aggressive.)
10. You walk around the house singing songs from Wicked or Frozen and that is basically it. I really don't feel like I need to explain this one, but I am pretty sure that both of my parents could sing Let It Go, For Good, Do You Want To Build A Snowman or Defying Gravity even though they have never heard the actual song but you sing it so frequently that they probably know all the words.
11. You have never dated anyone because you spend a lot of time at Walmart and the men at Walmart aren't really your type. Plus you are probably not their type because you don't wear Native American Wolf shirts with dream catchers on them, you are not squished into your clothing so tight that there is skin falling out, you don't have any full leg or arm tattoos of butterflies or Pooh Bear and you also don't have a hairstyle from the 80's such as a mullet. (I think that butterfly and Pooh Bear tattoos have the potential to be done tastefully).
12. You love driving your little car so much! Seriously, your Beetle makes you insanely happy and it is your dream car even if you will not admit it because it is kind of a lame dream car. It is your dream car because Barbie had a Bug and you wanted to be just like Barbie when you were a little girl. Also you played with Barbies until you were in 8th grade and sometimes you wish that it was still acceptable to play with Barbies because they are kinda fun sometimes.
13. You made a second list about yourself exposing all of your secrets because you hope that it will make people laugh and provide them with some enjoyment.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)