To the man I am going to marry

This is a letter to the man that I am going to marry, the one that I have been waiting for my whole life.

I don't know who you are. I don't know what your name is. I don't know where you live or where you work. But I do know one thing, I love, and have loved, you for a very long time. I started writing letters to you when I was 15, sitting in a science class and here I am...still writing you letters. Praying over you and wishing everyday that I meet you.

I normally keep these letter private. So I don't know why I decided to post one on my blog today. But you have been on my mind all week. I have been praying for you daily. I have been dreaming of our future and the wonderful adventures that we will go on together.

In my 21 years on this earth, I have seen really healthy marriages and really dysfunctional ones. I know what I want, and I know what I don't want. I do know that I want us to continually be surrendering our relationship, our marriage, over to Christ. I want us to seek His will and His plan each and every day. I want you to lead me, and our future family, in a loving, gracious and compassionate way. I want you to point us towards Christ.

I have no expectations meeting you, I know that you won't be prefect. Never have I thought that once I meet you my life will be all sunshine and rainbows like I see in fairytales. I know that you will not fix all of my problems. I don't expect you to sweep me off my feet. I am just excited to meet you. I am excited to learn about what makes you happy. I am anxious to participate in your hobbies. I can't wait to see what you are passionate about. I can't wait to love all of you.

Please know that I myself am in no way perfect. I have broken parts. I am not squeaky clean. I have made mistakes and I have regrets. But I know that I am forgiven, and I hope that you will be able to forgive me and see how Christ is rebuilding me.

One day, we will be together and I know that there will be such joy and happiness that comes with that. I can't wait to learn and grow with you. I am looking forward to the day that you and I will become parents and even grandparents. I am excited for all the adventuring that we will get to do together. But most importantly, I am anxious to meet the man that I have been waiting for all this time.

I love you now, and I always will.

Patiently Waiting,
Charlotte Lainey